Starting weight: 337.8
I still can't believe I am sharing this with everyone but I am at peace with it. It is what it is and only I can do something to change it. I was not as mortified by this as I thought I would be. I guess it's because since June when I moved into my apartment, I have lost almost 40 pounds! That tells me two things: 1) I don't ever want to see those numbers on the scale again and I have made the right decision about changing my life and 2) I can do this. I already have done it. Now I am going to do it with intention and really work at changing my life, not just my diet.
I am happy to say that I got up at 5:30, grabbed a banana and walked the 75 feet to the office where the fitness center is. I worked out for about a half hour and went 3/4 of a mile on the elliptical and 1/2 mile on the treadmill. I am also happy to say that I was the only one in there this morning! I turned the TV to Adventures in Babysitting and started up. I wanted to quit the elliptical about 4 minutes into it but I thought if those people on the Biggest Loser (some much bigger than I) can work out until they throw up or pass out, I can at least go 10 minutes on a stupid elliptical. Well, I did 11 minutes and then got off because I needed my water that I left on the window sill. Then I moved to the treadmill and did it Biggest Loser style - without holding on! LOL I feel like a kid who just learned how to ride a bike without training wheels.
So far, so good. I have decided to celebrate all of my accomplishments - even the small ones. Celebrating for me used to include "treating myself" to some high calorie food. Now it simply means patting myself on the back and being proud of my accomplishments - no matter how big or small.
Thanks for the encouragment and love that I have received already - it really does make this all seem much easier.
*Sorry for any typos - it's really early for me to be typing!